It has been a few months since I last posted. This period has seen more action than revelation. Due to all that has transpired I had to start a new life. My marriage was not bad. It definitely needed work but there was not a problem that couldn't be solved or accepted. It was a very painless separation for me. Unfortunately it wasn't for my wife. She has struggled with it and I am sorry for that. I had no idea she would take it the way she has because there was very little communication between us.
She had very little sense of the changes I was going through and that made it very difficult to talk about. I doubt she has ever read anything I have written that I haven't deliberately placed in front of her. Conversation was limited when I did. I could not live like that anymore.
That wasn't the only reason. if you live in the Northwest, you had better have a busy life because the weather is no doubt some of the most depressing in the world. There are places where the weather is far more violent and extreme but with that comes a challenge to survive and that adds meaning to ones life if there is nothing else doing it. My current lifestyle in Florida basically has me living in what I call my monks cell. I spend hours inside and it is absolutely gorgeous outside. The difference, I have a choice. I choose to work and save money as my resources are very limited. When I can't stand it anymore, I never have to wait more than a day or two and I can walk on the beach, talk to people fishing on the piers, go in the water and recall my youth growing up on the beach. When the weather does get bad it gets violent and one has to be concerned about surviving. I love it.
When I have the income to take advantage of all this part of the world has to offer believe me I will be. I feel like I am home here though I do not fit in with the culture and never will other than activities. I totally fit in there. The people are genuine and kind as long as you stay away from those who would love to go off on someone. In these political times there are a lot of frustrated people everywhere.
I have restarted my career in television, specifically webcasting. There is a huge potential here as the internet and innovations in technology are changing the paradigm for all broadcasting. I want to be a part of that, possibly even a leader in the evolving adaptations the industry is currently undergoing.
I am still experiencing my phenomena and I am still studying and writing the revelations that come with it. Much of that has switched to the technological field of television and I do not add that to any of my blogs. I just finished a section to my main blog, "Please Listen" titled "Can we prove God exists?" I believe it is one of the better things I have written.
On March 21st while driving back from Mobile Alabama to Pensacola Florida where my monk's cell is, I experienced the strongest indigo light I have ever seen. As always it appeared on the sides of the road at night and formed halos around cars whose engines are running. I no longer question these things and there is an aura of peace and harmony about them which I have no explanation for and I feel no desire to try and come up with one. I did ask a few new ager's if there was anything going on.
The problem with new ager's, there is always something going on so there was no insight for me. I am open to input should anyone reading this have any. I am hoping to get out of my monks cell soon and there are events that have a good chance of springing me from the poverty of my current calling. I didn't take a conscious vow of poverty but I may as well have.
There is no way in hell I will ever go back to the Northwest. I don't know where that leaves my marriage. I am not actively pursuing other companionship and I do not believe that is all due to a lack of money though it's a great excuse. I feel like I am healing spiritually and that very well could be what has to happen before I make any commitment to something other than my writing and the work I am doing in television. Time will tell.
Hopefully there will be events soon that lead to contributions to this blog no matter what they may be.
