Wednesday, April 16, 2014

Just checking in

There certainly have been no major events happen in my life since my last posting, The trigeminial neuralgia I suffer with  grew steadily worse over the  winter and I had a gamma knife procedure done last month. The condition has improved and I am hoping for  all the pain  to go away. That can take up to three months. It gets a little better each day but it is a slow process. I bring this up because it was a procedure to correct the problem that changed my life and led to the blue light phenomena I continue to experience.

There is a correlation between the light and events in my life. As much as I hate to admit it there is some pre-destiny to the lives we  live. I do not look for signs of things to come but things happen that are directly related to changes that soon follow.   To experience the light phenomena I can enter into a meditative state, something I can do fairly easily as a result of having to deal with pain of the condition I have.  Not all the time. I experience  it far more vividly when it happens spontaneously.  The spontaneous moments correlate directly to major events in my life. I never have any idea what the event will be and , most times, it isn't something I have been worried about like a financial issue. It can be triggered by what I will call pondering. 

For example, I have been researching the subject of time and will be adding my findings to my other blog when the time comes (no pun intended).  Simple questions like, "How long does the present last?" have very complex answers.   If we think of time as a force and the future as being the potential associated with the force, pre-destiny starts to make some sense and I really feel that is what I am sensing. Proving it is  a whole different thing. It is a work in progress which I will share as soon as I feel it is ready.

While pondering, I often experience the light phenomena. There are no thoughts associated with this phenomena. I observe what I see. The thoughts come later, usually within 24 hours of experiencing the phenomena.  I wish I could conduct more research and I would love to hear from anyone who has experienced  anything similar or is interested in researching the phenomena further,

I am putting this to a little test. Right now I am pondering the type of lifestyle I want to live for the time I have left.   Nothing is perfect. It certainly has to be practicable and exist under the limits of my budget.  Events  can happen that will affect my choice. Time will tell.   


Friday, August 2, 2013

It's about time

It is about time I updated this blog but that's not the reason for the title.

It has become rather obvious to me, my reason for blogging is a function of the blue light phenomena I have been experiencing for over two years.    It started with evolution which changed to philosophy, psychology and cosmology.   All that is in my blog Please Listen.

I still experience the phenomena but it has become less urgent. The more I write, the less urgent it becomes.   I can still see  the effect if I look for it under the proper light conditions.  I rarely do this  anymore.   At times, I experience the light when I am not in control of the phenomena.  When this happens, I find myself writing new information into my blogs. Sometimes it's a whole new topic. Other times it is an addition to things I have already written.    If you were to ask me a week before I started writing what my next subject would be, I couldn't tell you.  The thoughts  simply come to me. 

I question  these thoughts myself and research the field the thoughts are part of. I find no contradictions.  In fact I find others have had thoughts  similar or identical. In my most recent posting, It's about time, my reference to starting points is  commonly used in physics. I did not know that.  

I hope you take the time to read my latest addition to  my blog, Please Listen. If you know anyone who works in the field of physics, please share it with them. I welcome comments.    

On the personal side, my life is fairly routine and I have adjusted to the Floridan climate. I like the humidity.  It feels good on my aging body.  I do have an unresolved issue that involves a past life if you believe in that sort of thing. I do want to do further research but apparently not badly enough to do something about it.  Odd since it is one of the  reasons I came to Florida.

I am still working with a group trying to establish new concepts in media coverage.  These are hard times. The group I am with includes  highly trained and experienced professionals in the field of media.   We get noticed but, as of this, we have yet to be funded but hopes are still high.

As to what the energy I see is, I do not have the funds to conduct research. I certainly have ideas on how to proceed. It is external to me and it is associated with our species. It also is a large part of this universe we live in. I wish I could share the night skies I see.  The entire sky is violet. I believe the energy is there all the time. I can only see it under the proper light conditions and when  it wants me to see it.  Weird, I know but the phenomena is not a hallucination. If I had no other proof  how can anyone explain  my writings?  I do have proof. I see light in the near ultraviolet range. Anyone who wants to test me, is welcome to contact me.

I will keep this blog updated on any new events I experience. 

Monday, January 28, 2013

A New year and a new beginning

I just happened to look at my stats for this blog and  I see I am getting quite a few page views.  I need to bring it up to date.   The network I mentioned  in my previous post is a lot closer to becoming a reality.  It will keep me quite busy once we get started but I will try and  make quarterly posts at the minimum.  

The visual phenomena I experience  continues. Sometimes I see it when I think about it under the proper lighting conditions like driving at night.  Other times it appears with no warning  if the lighting conditions are  proper. I have discussed what I see in detail in this blog and  there is nothing new to report. The intensity of what I see varies. The greater the intensity, the more likely that something is happening or will happen that will affect my life. That something could be an addition to my main blog, Please Listen or it could be an event that is affecting or will affect my life.  My most recent post called Simplicity is rather ambitious, explaining my hypothesis on the Theory of Everything. I will be adding an addendum to my section on relationships in the near future. 

I did witness rather unique phenomena on and around 12/21/2012.   I saw several meteorites  that looked to be impacting the surface in the two week period surrounding the 21st. To my knowledge there was no meteorite impact anywhere near Jacksonville Florida so I am not sure what I was seeing.  The path was almost vertical for all of them. I didn't count  how many I witnessed but a dozen or so sounds about right. Their descent averaged 2-5 seconds. I was able to quickly close my eyes during a few of them and the image was not there with my eyes closed. I have learned not to alarm others with what I see. 

I will be seeing a new Ophthalmologist at the end of this month and I will see if he will be more interested in this phenomena then  the last one was. I and the last one proved what I was seeing was not being created inside my conscious brain but I believe he  thought I was  imagining  what I saw. 

On a personal side, my divorce either is final or will be final this month. I had a run in with a melanoma on the back of my neck but they got it all. The Doctor I had in the Pacific Northwest looked at the offending mole but felt it was nothing to be worried about.  A skin doctor here in Florida didn't agree and lucky for me she biopsied it. Aside from the awesome weather as compared to the Pacific Northwest, coming to Florida probably saved my life.

Tuesday, August 21, 2012

Staying in Florida

It has been awhile since I posted as there has  not been a lot to report about. I continue to work in television production as I and a group of professionals  pursue the new TV network we are creating. Things look very promising as of today.

I have ended up in Jacksonville and it looks like this will be my home for awhile. This a beautiful city, There are problems but it is very modern and  the beach front towns are  upscale and not too touristy. The industrial parks are some of the most beautiful I have seen anywhere and the city at night along the river is breathtaking.  If you want  old world charm and rustic living you head down the coast to Saint Augustine and, if you have money, you stay in Pointe Vedra, home of the Players Championship. Near the ocean its always cooler.

I started dating again after I realized my marriage is at an end and we  both have to move on. My  spiritual energy did not help me come to that decision. That was on me and I finally understood why many of the things that happened in my marriage happened. We both need to move on.

There  really isn't a lot to report on the energy side. I still experience the phenomena and I record my intuitive thoughts in my other two blogs. I do get  spiritual guidance  regarding  women I date and I do not question it.  It feels like I have a mentor and a friend keeping me out of trouble.

There are two television shows I may soon be producing that are a direct result of a dating site. I recommend  on line dating sites. Women need to be careful but it is a great way to meet people. There were a couple of profiles I looked at  in which I felt an intense desire to be  with that person. In each case  it led to a possible TV production. More input from my spirit.  

There is this sense of something happening that will be good for us all and I have no idea what it is. Not the election, or some miracle. Just something.   My birthday was an amazing day.  Curiosity landed on Mars. I became a little involved  through people I know because of the work I did in the space program. Neil Armstrong, the first man on the moon, also was born on my birthday in Australian time. He underwent bypass surgery on the 6th of August  and is  doing well from what I have heard. I was one of the crew that  brought the world the video of Neil walking on the moon. Another member of that crew was born on the 4th  of August.  Neil's stateside birthday, August 5th, is book ended by two of the Apollo TV crew, me on the 6th and the other on the 4th.

All coincidence probably but  now neither Neil nor I have to live with the thought that  humankind's  greatest accomplishment on the 6th of August, until Curiosity landed after completing a flawless mission, was the atomic bombing of Hiroshima.

Our new TV network will start soon.  I will have more to report then.

I had to update this with Neil's passing on the 25th of August. He was a humble man who never used his accomplishment  for personal gain. On Friday night, the 24th of August a 56% moon  looked very different to me. The people I was with also noted it  when I pointed it out. It was brighter and the terminator was as sharply defined as I have ever seen it with the naked eye.  I did not know Neil  was close to death from complications due to his bypass surgery when I witnessed it. Others  have said they too thought the moon looked different that night. Coincidence again? You be the judge..

The parallel  between me and Neil Armstrong continued to the day of his burial at sea. I  had no idea Neils mortal  remains would be  scattered in the ocean outside of Jacksonville Florida. The  vessel carrying his ashes departed Mayport less then 4 miles from where I was. Had I known I would have  gone  to the mouth of the Saint Johns river and witnessed the  boat carrying his ashes. There is  a ferry that crosses the river which I could have taken had I known.  In a way it was a fitting end to the journey we shared together. I never personally met the man though I was within 20 feet of him during the 40th anniversary of Apollo 11.  The vast majority of us who were a part of the manned space program never did  personally meet the astronauts. I had the honor of working with two of them during Project Mercury while I was at Canton Island but none of us were there for personal glory or fame from those who  went into space to all of us  who supported them while they were there.

If Neil were standing next to me at this very moment, I think he would agree  and hope as I do, that all of humankind will find the commitment and sense of purpose all of us had during mans first steps into the vastness of space. It is a journey that should be shared by every one of us in all aspects of our lives. 

Sunday, April 1, 2012

Moved to Florida

It has been a few months since I last posted.  This period has seen more action than revelation.  Due to all that  has transpired I had to  start a new life.  My marriage  was not bad. It definitely needed work but  there was  not a problem that couldn't be solved or accepted.  It was a very painless separation for me. Unfortunately it wasn't for my wife. She has struggled with it and I  am sorry for that.  I had no idea she would take it the way she has because there was very little communication between us. 

She had very little sense of the changes I was going through and that made it very difficult to talk about. I doubt she has ever read anything I have written that I haven't deliberately placed in front of her. Conversation was  limited  when I did.  I could not live like that anymore.

That wasn't the only reason. if you live in the Northwest, you had better have a busy life because the weather is no doubt some of the most depressing in the world. There are places where the weather is far more violent and extreme but  with that comes a challenge to survive and   that adds meaning to ones life if there is nothing else  doing it. My current lifestyle in Florida  basically has me living in what I call my monks cell.  I spend hours inside and it is absolutely gorgeous outside. The difference, I have a choice. I choose to work and save money as my  resources are very limited.  When I can't stand it anymore, I never have to wait more than a day or two and I can walk on the beach, talk to people fishing on the piers, go in the water and  recall my youth growing up on the beach.  When the weather does get bad it gets violent and one has to be concerned about surviving. I love it.  

When  I have the income to take advantage of all this part of the world has to offer  believe me I will be. I feel like I am home here though I do not fit in with the culture and never will other than activities. I totally fit in there. The people are genuine and kind  as long as you stay away from those who would love to  go off on   someone.  In these political times  there are a lot of frustrated people everywhere. 

I have restarted my career in television, specifically webcasting. There is a huge potential here as  the internet and  innovations in technology are changing the paradigm for all broadcasting. I want to be a part of that, possibly even a leader in the evolving adaptations the industry is currently undergoing.

I am still experiencing my phenomena and I am still studying and writing  the revelations that come with it. Much of that has switched to the technological field of television and I do not add that to any of my blogs. I just finished a section to my main blog, "Please Listen" titled "Can we  prove God exists?"  I believe it is one of the better things I have written.

On March 21st while driving back from Mobile Alabama to Pensacola Florida where my monk's cell is, I experienced the strongest indigo light I have ever seen. As always  it appeared on the sides of the road at night and  formed halos around cars  whose engines are running.  I no longer question these things and there is an aura of peace and harmony about them which I have no explanation for and I feel no desire to try and  come up with one. I did ask a few new ager's if there was anything going on.

The problem with new ager's,  there is always something going on so  there was no insight for me. I am open to input should anyone reading this have any. I am hoping to get out of my monks cell soon and  there are events that  have a good chance of  springing me  from the poverty of my current calling.  I didn't take a conscious vow of poverty but I may as well have. 

There is no way in hell I will ever go back to the Northwest.  I don't know where that leaves my marriage. I am not actively pursuing other companionship and I do not believe that is all due to a lack of money though  it's a great excuse. I feel like I am healing spiritually and  that very well could be what has to happen before I  make any commitment to something other than my writing and the work I am doing in television. Time will tell.

Hopefully there will be events soon  that lead to contributions to this blog no matter what they may be.

Tuesday, November 8, 2011

With a little help from my friend

Ever since I first starting experiencing the changes in my personality and life experiences after my surgery in November of 2010 I have been looking for  answers to what has happened to me.  I have gone from seeing spirits, to believing I  am an indigo and looking for answers in all things metaphysical. Sometimes we are simply to close  to something to see it.

That's where friends come in. It took a friend reading an article on NDE's (Near Death Experiences) to put two and two together. As he read the article it began to dawn on him that everything in the article he was reading defined the things that were happening to his friend, me.

It appears  I had a NDE while I was under deep sedation for the surgical procedure I had done in November of 2010.  I asked my surgeon if this was possible and he  believed that the level of sedation required to work on a persons brain stem could induce a NDE.  I have no recollection of anything that happened while I was so heavily sedated.  The after effects started showing up  within a few weeks of the surgery with the first being the light phenomena I have been and continue to experience.  The second most obvious was the blog I wrote on reincarnation, a subject I had little or no interest in prior to the surgery.

Many other  events and things have occurred over the last 11 months.  When I filled out the questionnaire on the research site for NDE  I matched up 100% with the effects  that have been noted in other people who have  had a NDE.  I now believe I did  have a NDE  during my surgery.

What is really ironic is I covered NDE in my blog on reincarnation and I never made the connection. The effects were not as many or as strong in the early months as they are now.  I guess one can chalk this up to coincidence  but I am sitting in a motel room in Roswell New Mexico as I post  on my way to a new job in Pensacola Florida due to  a major change in my personality.  I basically walked away from a 30 year marriage that was by no means perfect, but a lot of people would have been perfectly content to be in a similar one. The marriage was not to bad or  not to good but it wasn't just right.  A lot of people would eagerly have settled but I could  not do that anymore.  There have been many other incidents, all of a profound nature that, by themselves, would be unusual  but lumping them together defies  logical explanation.

I now feel that part of the mystery is behind me.  Now I can focus on all the new knowledge I am getting and  how best to present it.  Knowledge unshared is a tree falling in the forest with no one to hear it and I sincerely believe this  set of trees needs to heard and studied by  others. There may be nothing new here. It is new to me. If my  coming up with the concepts I have  is solely a result of intuition on my part and they prove to be false or end up corroborating someone else's work, they were arrived at with little or no study in the  area  I discuss. If nothing else, they will add further evidence to someone else's  theory. As I gather new information I will update this post..

Sunday, October 2, 2011

A further appeal

If my last post was a little too long and anyone wants a more condensed version with less technical information I offer this:

To whom it may concern:

I have been given a gift. Was I given it by accident or by design? I do not know. The gift is new knowledge and an awareness of my spirit via a visual phenomena. I see light  which I believe is the  frequency and method that exists to  interface our spirit to our physical mind and the universe. I have not arrived at that observation easily. I have seen doctors medical and psychological and I am not ill and I am not delusional. Apparently this phenomenon happened due to a procedure I had done to repair damage in my brain stem. I have done all the experiments and tests I can do myself. I welcome anyone who wants to take the research further.

 I am certainly not the first to experience new knowledge. Many believe that new knowledge comes from education but that is only partially true. New knowledge comes more from intuition than education.  Thomas Edison was living proof  if one needs proof. Intuition certainly provides the initiative to pursue education because  there is no need to reinvent the wheel.  Knowledge is only new if there is no record of it existing anywhere else.

 A young man walks into a classroom and hands his teacher something he has been working on which he believes has value. It turns out to be the theory of algorithms and the teacher is amazed when he  realizes this young man has developed algorithms all on his own with no prior knowledge of them. It happens, probably a lot more than many people realize. All any of us can do with new knowledge is  hand it to others. Either it is a false observation or you are not the first to think of it.  Is that grounds to keep it to yourself? New knowledge changes our world and the perception of our world and if it isn't new, you can bet that young man  went on to a very productive career in mathematics. 

The  huge problem new knowledge faces is it often contradicts old knowledge and far too many times  we find excuses not to pay attention to it and we end up suffering ignorance and even  illness and death  because it contradicted what we think we believe.

I believe this new knowledge I have  opens a new approach to the field of psychiatry and the workings of our universe. I can find no record of it anywhere else and no one has stepped forward and told me  it is false information. I will keep trying to hand it to people until one or both happens. If neither happens I will continue even if  it isn't taken seriously in my remaining life time.


Richard Holl
dickholl@hotmail.com